Planning

"Do they have a pool?" he asks, "I'll bring my trunks. Do you swim? Bring your suit."
"Yes, I swim, but we didn't use suits before."
I'm laughing, because our first, no, second night, together, we got into the jacuzzi,
Nekkid, before we ever kissed.
"We had our own tub."
I can see him smiling.
Before we had ever kissed
You poured water down my breasts
You let me wrap my legs around you
My foot touched, my toes nearly touched
You intimately, it was easy, an ease between us.
We soaked in the warmth
We giggled, not talking, not like the first night
Relaxing,
Bubbling,
Letting the jets massage our legs
We're chest deep in roiling water and
Shyness and, dare I say it,
Some joy.
Your hair is so curly and so red and so thick and
Your skin is so porcelain white, so white the white of the
Clouds reminds me of the muscles and shapes of your body
I exult with laughter and happiness each time a cloud
Reminds me of you.
.
We're planning to meet again at a hotel in the middle of
America, the middle of next month, a month and a
Year after last I heard from you - I thought you were
Dead! Hearing from you again has set me atumble, I
Worry about seeing you holding you talking to you
Making love to you again it was so good before I
Hope you want me like you used to you've been
Through so much in a year.

.

I am so cruel

You say you want me.
You don't have time for me.
Tell me you're thinking of me.
I never hear from you.
I made it real easy although
I don't think I made it clear.
I told you I already sent myself
Roses so I wouldn't miss you
on Valentine's Day if you got it
you would know I have no
expectations of you as well as
I know you won't meet any of
my needs.
.
I will be the foam on the wave.
Ride in - enjoy it - disappear
when the wave leaves, as it
inevitably does, without
being impacted, because foam
is just air, after all.
Not consumed or subsumed,
just there, then ready to go
again.